One year ago...

Today is December 27, 2011.  

A year ago today, we found out we were pregnant.  

I will never forget that day.  We were both so happy.  We could not believe that pregnancy test. 

Of course, I took like 3 or 4.  Each one of them quickly showed a positive test.  I remember not wanting to get my hopes up in case I went to the doctor and was told otherwise.  As if the morning sickness I started feeling 24 hours a day was not enough confirmation for me...

How crazy life is.  A year later, I'm blogging and pumping for my 3 little angels in the next room.  Sometimes we still cannot believe it.  My husband and I look at each other and still say "Three babies".  How did this happen? 

Ironically, today my husband found a business card.  A business card for the fertility doctor we started to see before Big Sis was conceived.  The doctor who told us we had a 4% chance of conceiving on our own.  The doctor who was about to start Clomid but was sure IVF was our only hope.  The doctor we never saw again once Big Sis was conceived.

God is truly amazing. Who would have ever thought we would have four kiddos?  A few months ago, while the trio was in the NICU, my mind was always foggy.  Not once could I see the future.  Not once could I see ahead.  I had to live minute by minute, hour by hour and day by day.  In the beginning, there were days I questioned my faith.  I had my angry moments.  I didn't understand why my babies had to be born so early.  Why they had to suffer and go through so much.  But as time went by, I accepted the fact that I was not in charge.  God had a plan for us.  I began praying for strength to get through whatever God had chosen for us.  This brought me some sense of peace.  I knew God was with us.  Having the triplets born at 25 weeks gestation was hard.  It's been a long and an exhausting emotional journey.  But God truly is amazing.  

Raising triplets and a five year old is hard.  Super hard.  I have my good days and my bad days.  On those bad days, the only thing I can do is pray.  Pray for patience and strength and be thankful for the blessings God has given us.  He picked us for a reason.  

Today, I can finally think of the future.  I can see our kids growing up together surrounded by love.