We had a physical therapist come out to evaluate the babies last week.
All three will qualify for the Early Start Infant Program through SELPA (Special Education Local Plan Area). Our therapist will be coming to work with them once a week for at least six months. The babies will definitely benefit from this; and overall, it's a great thing.
So why was I an emotional mess? It all came back to me.
They were born 15 weeks early. I've known that they are going to have developmental delays. But somehow I was reminded once again of their rough beginning to life. Not that I will ever forget, but our entire NICU experience flashed in front of me. They had to grow and develop outside the womb.
The way they looked the first few days. Their skin was so fragile, we could not touch them without worrying if their skin would rub off or break.
The first month or so was extremely hard. I never knew what each day would bring. It was rare that all three of them would have a good day on the same day. I would walk in and look at all their stats. Their heart rate, saturation level, ventilator settings and ask for their blood gas numbers. Their condition was critical. They were very sick babies. This was my life for over 3 months.
I look at them now, and they are perfect. I can't believe how healthy
they have been since we have been home. I was wishing they were the
exception. They are starting to smile, and trying so hard to lift their
little heads up.
The therapist pointed out what
milestones needed to be met. All of their motor skills are a bit delayed. She said even
for their adjusted age (2 months) they were lagging a bit behind, which is to be expected.
I know this is not a bad thing. I am grateful that they will get the help they need to thrive even more. But having triplets brings little or no downtime that I sometimes forget how much further they have to go. It will definitely be a good thing to have someone else track their development because most of the time I can't remember what happened yesterday.