Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Flashbacks~And it's not even Friday

Oh that sweet baby smell!  A few days ago, we had one of those off mornings when Marcos decided to wake up a bit before 4am, or was it 3am? I guess we can’t get 3 babies to sleep in til 6 every day.  He was restless, he cried and was a bit mad that we were trying to put him back to sleep.  Each time we tried to put him back in his crib or even on our bed, he woke up and cried. Eventually I figured out he was hungry.  Only about 2 hours later.  So there I went down the stairs to make him a bottle wondering what I could do to make him drink all his bottles during the day.

We have been having a lot of night wakings.  Thankfully, it's very rare that all 3 wake up on the same night so most of the time its not too too bad. Don't get me wrong I love sleep and those restless nights are draining. There are some occasions, like that morning, in which I treasure those moments.  It's quiet and I'm holding my big boy. I think he is huge.  And I begin to remember just how little he once was. I cuddle him.  I smell him and thank God our sweet babies are home. Mornings like this remind me how bad I wanted to hear my babies cry. I waited weeks, maybe even two months to hear their cries.  I remember the distress on their faces when they were unhappy but no sounds were heard. An intubated baby does not make noise when they cry, and when that tube comes out, its not a normal baby cry, its more like a whimper, or more like a cat, later on a bit raspy, making a mama wonder if their cries will always sound like that.  Patience, one of them many things NICU life teaches.  

I don't think I ever went back to sleep before Carlos and Sofia were up crying around 5 am. Knowing Marcos and daddy had barely settled back to sleep.  I went in their room and held both of them. Again, sweet baby smell.  The day I held 2 babies for the first time came right back to me as it was yesterday. It was Marcos and Sofia. Now, Carlos and Sofie are both making the raspberry sounds with their little mouths, raspberries, sweet baby sounds.  I held them 'til their normal wake up time and then we started our day. 

Now fast forward a couple hours after their first bottle, deep into the morning routine of unloading the dishwasher, making the trio's breakfast, breathing treatments and pumping when I start feeling the exhaustion.  As soon as big sister comes down those stairs, I hear, "Mom, I'm hungry, I want Trix... ".
Can you get me this or that...always with such urgency.  Can I watch TV?  I don't want to take a bath.  I want to play with the babies...MOM!!!

Back to my reality of getting through another day with the four kiddos. And that's when I am glad I have those moments early in the mornings.

1 comment:

  1. :) They've come so far! Can't wait to see you guys again! <3 Nurse Janelle