It's been over a week since Carlitos came home, and over two weeks since Marcos and Sofia were released. It's been a big blur. Two babies were definitely manageable...the third one makes it super hard, especially nights. We are getting no sleep. Sofia has some digestion issues, gas or colic, I don't know...but she is so uncomfortable at times and screams so loud.
All three babies love to be held, day or night!
Since the babies have been home, I have:
- changed a ton of diapers
- seen way too much poop
- done a lot of burping
- prepared a lot of bottles
- nursed way less than what I wanted to....and pumped a lot more
- managed to bottle feed one baby and hold the others pacifier
- carefully walk down the stairs while holding 2 babies
- bottle fed one and pump at the same time
- made it on time to three doctors' appointments
- showered every day
- reminded my husband what a good daddy he is
- dealt with a very bad, horrible diaper rash
- volunteered at Isabella's school
- And gotten very little sleep....
I've cried tears of joy and happiness and tears of exhaustion. There are days I feel completely overwhelmed. I've given myself lots and lots of pep talks, the one that works the best is when I remind myself of everything my little babies went through. Every breath they struggled with, every poke they got. I think to myself...if they survived it, so can I! I will not fail them.
PicturesTaken August 30, 2011
3 1/2 months old, 2 days old adjusted
I am a mess over here, reading through your blog. What a journey you all have had! You've walked through it with such grace. I so admire you. I hope today is a good one.
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