We have all been sick! Big sis had pneumonia last week and spent five days with an on and off fever, terrible headache, earache, and cough. She stayed in her room for days. Thank God she can be entertained by watching movies. All she wanted was some cuddle time. She was lucky to get five minutes here and there because the trio has also been sick. Though they did not swab for RSV, the doctor is 99% sure that this is what they have. Possible that Sofia had not fully recovered from the first time. Awful cough, lots of wheezing, nebulizer treatments and inhalers for everyone and 2nd round of prednisolone for Sofia. Daddy was sick, grandparents are sick and of course now it's my turn.
I've had my moments of weakness and moments of anger. Why do things have to be so difficult? Why do I have to administer so much medicine to my precious babies? Haven't they been through enough? Why are they sick again? When will this end? Is this what I have to look forward each winter?
It is the saddest thing to see a baby cough so much that they end up throwing up. And even more sad, Carlitos's voice sounds almost gone, meaning when he cries, I can't really hear him. That sure does not help me sleep at night. Did I mention that Marcos also has a bad case of thrush? It's almost gone but I've been giving him medicine for over 7 days now, having to swab his cheek four times a day.
RSV has been tough. We were warned about it and have known that it can be deadly to a micropreemie. The only place the babies go are doctors' offices. We wash our hands and sanitize often. I am doing the best I can. I really am. Big sis is constantly washing her hands and she does understand why and everything but she is five! It's really tough to keep her away from the babies sometimes and having three babies makes it tough. I can't keep my eyes on her at all times. Thank God for synagis. According to the doctor, these are mild cases. All three sat in the high 90's, meaning no hospitalization. There has been concern for Sofia's rapid breathing. Her respiratory rate is often in the 60's and she may need to see a pulmonologist.
Today, the babies had their 9 month check up. Of course they are developmentally behind...but each time I hear it, it gets to me. It felt like I answered "no" for every question I was asked. So to wrap up our long appointment, our doctor said they are lagging behind even for a 4 month old. She did have some great things to say, they are smiling and laughing and squealing and grabbing and cooing and babbling and tracking...but their gross motor skills need a lot of work. She didn't even think they should start solids yet until I told her that Sofia watches me eat like she wants some and that Marcos really looks like he enjoys eating his medicines. Another thing that is worrisome is that Carlitos's weight gain has reached a plateau. We have been so lucky in the gaining weight department that I'm kind of in denial. Sofia now weighs more than him. It's possible we may have to fortify again to add extra calories if he doesn't gain this month.
Carlos: 12 lbs. 14 oz
Marcos: 14 lbs. 4 oz
Sofia: 13 lbs. 6 oz
A couple of milestones
Marcos has found his feet and can roll from his back to his tummy.
Sofia is holding her bottle more and more and starting to sit unassisted for a second or two. She has also been cluster feeding at night, eating very frequently from 6pm to 9pm, taking about 12 or 13 oz in small increments during those hours. Tough on mama but she has slept from 9 to 6am two nights in a row!! Big!!! Now her brothers need to get on that schedule.
We have the trio's first follow up appointment with the NICU clinic next week and I must admit that I am a bit nervous on what they will say but I am looking forward to seeing some of the doctors that were in the delivery room when they arrived.